Post by Yllan on Jun 30, 2006 16:01:31 GMT -5
Good afternoon, my dear Sunrise People.. I hope you're having a good day..
I.. I really don't know how to begin this, but I feel that as Head Wizard I should offer an apology to my lack of effort put into my OOC duties and Role Play in general.
I could write many hundreds of lines explaining the complexities of what goes on around me. As many of you know (since 90% of the playerbase is, also, a good friend of mine) I consider myself a somewhat happy-go-lucky kind of individual. I try to go on no matter what, I fight for what I believe is fair with teeth and claws .. but I'm not, by any means, invincible.
I'm not admitting defeat .. but I have to admit that, at least today, I'm feeling rather down (which is not quite common on me... though it seems things are finally catching up with me). And this is not the typical 'Oh my god I need some kind words to cheer me up' sort of post, but rather an apology..
I'm truly sorry .. but I might be absent for the following days. Luckily most of my characters are not quite important, and RP can go on without them, so yeah..
But yes.. real life sucks sometimes. I work 43 hours a week I'm about to choose a career, I train Agility 6 hours straight, intensely, with my Doberman. All that is OK, I suppose.. but my best friend has kind of .. flipped out on me, saying I 'don't devote enough time to her and our friendship' (never mind she came to my house this friggin' Monday, and we meet at least 2 a week).. and it hurts. It hurts because, for the first time, I feel there's nothing I can do. I give as much time as I can, without growing exhausted in the process.. but yeah.. things have been going downhill for a month now .. and I can't keep up the HAPPY mask anymore.
I think what really made me click is that another friend of mine is pregnant, and she's only 19 years old .. and she's coming TONIGHT to take those friggin' pills and 'get rid of the problem'. And, I admit, it disturbs me...greatly. I do NOT agree with it... but, since her father is out for business, she better does it somewhere she can be assisted should things go wrong .. so I don't really know what tonight holds for me. It might be simply tragic .. or we might end up in the hospital. God knows.
For these two reasons .. I'm going to be gone for most of the weekend .. and if I do log on, it'll possibly be only to chat OOCly with you guys..
I'm sorry, guys .. but I guess that, no matter how much I try doing at the same time, I'm still.. only human.
I.. I really don't know how to begin this, but I feel that as Head Wizard I should offer an apology to my lack of effort put into my OOC duties and Role Play in general.
I could write many hundreds of lines explaining the complexities of what goes on around me. As many of you know (since 90% of the playerbase is, also, a good friend of mine) I consider myself a somewhat happy-go-lucky kind of individual. I try to go on no matter what, I fight for what I believe is fair with teeth and claws .. but I'm not, by any means, invincible.
I'm not admitting defeat .. but I have to admit that, at least today, I'm feeling rather down (which is not quite common on me... though it seems things are finally catching up with me). And this is not the typical 'Oh my god I need some kind words to cheer me up' sort of post, but rather an apology..
I'm truly sorry .. but I might be absent for the following days. Luckily most of my characters are not quite important, and RP can go on without them, so yeah..
But yes.. real life sucks sometimes. I work 43 hours a week I'm about to choose a career, I train Agility 6 hours straight, intensely, with my Doberman. All that is OK, I suppose.. but my best friend has kind of .. flipped out on me, saying I 'don't devote enough time to her and our friendship' (never mind she came to my house this friggin' Monday, and we meet at least 2 a week).. and it hurts. It hurts because, for the first time, I feel there's nothing I can do. I give as much time as I can, without growing exhausted in the process.. but yeah.. things have been going downhill for a month now .. and I can't keep up the HAPPY mask anymore.
I think what really made me click is that another friend of mine is pregnant, and she's only 19 years old .. and she's coming TONIGHT to take those friggin' pills and 'get rid of the problem'. And, I admit, it disturbs me...greatly. I do NOT agree with it... but, since her father is out for business, she better does it somewhere she can be assisted should things go wrong .. so I don't really know what tonight holds for me. It might be simply tragic .. or we might end up in the hospital. God knows.
For these two reasons .. I'm going to be gone for most of the weekend .. and if I do log on, it'll possibly be only to chat OOCly with you guys..
I'm sorry, guys .. but I guess that, no matter how much I try doing at the same time, I'm still.. only human.